Mania

Hello, today has been a pretty manic day. I got a lot done. I wont be able to sleep tonight. I can tell already. My mind is going a million miles an hour. I have so many things I want to get done. This usually means I can hardly move tomorrow. I have to get on the roof to fix a hole so I really hope I can at least do that.

Since my son has moved out there is no one living upstairs. So I cleaned all 4 rooms and cleaned them out. Closets included. Writing is difficult tonight because I have so many things I’m thinking about. It’s very hard to concentrate.

I realized today that I’m not sure what my future holds. I really feel like it holds good things and that I will be able to live a happy life and manage this hellish disease. It wont be easy but it will be a challange and I love a challange.

The challange I am working on now is getting people familiar with this disease. A disease in my brain. That sounds so frightening. It is very frightening. There is a lot of information to look up about it and its overwhelming.

Someone pulled up to the house earlier and got out of the truck. I asked my son why he was driving the truck. It wasn’t my son. It was his friend. I do that a lot but always catch myself, until today. I honestly couldn’t tell the difference. New things crop up all of the time. I used to call it rolling with the punches. Until I realized the punches were coming from a champion fighter.

This all may sound insignificant to some but for me, it’s very very real. I’m in a constant fight with my mind that controls my emotions irratically.

Please follow, share, comment, all of the above. Please help me get this out there.

Have a great night

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